Log Out & Shut Down

The internet is a wonderful creation. The internet is also an evil creation.

It's 2013 and if you still don't know how to use the internet, there really is almost nothing you can do nowadays without it. I mean you can read books, go play in the park, watch TV... all those things people used to do back then without the internet, but let's be real. Can we actually function without it now?

Say, I want to look for a job right now. The best place to find it? Online. The best place to research about it? Online. The best place to find out more information about everything else related to anything or anyone? Online. Google, Facebook, Linkedin, Twitter, Tumblr, Wikipedia... you name it. It is the most quick and efficient way to research and get information you need. Heck, even after an interview, you need to go online to write up a thank-you letter. You can definitely write a card, but by the time the card gets there, they'd probably hired someone in place of the position already. LOL jk. Not really.

We rely so heavily on the internet, that we are not able to really work without it. There's online homework now that you cannot avoid. Your dog can no longer eat your homework, because everything is expected to be handed online. Unless your dog bit your internet wire/box. After switching to a smart phone the past year (I know, I'm pretty late), I realized that without my internet on my phone... I feel so... so... isolated. Isolated from the world. That same feeling I get when I leave my phone at home and I cannot contact anyone. At all. Once, I even went home during my lunch break to go back home and get my phone, making it back just in time for my next class. That is how desperate I am to stay connected. There are also those instances when you get an emergency phone call, but you left your phone at home, and then everything goes out of control. Your mom is wondering if something happened to you because you didn't pick up. She then calls your dad who then calls my aunt, who calls my cousin, who calls my friends, etc. All because I left my phone at home. Crazy isn't it? Same goes for a dead phone. I now have to call/text in advance that my phone is going to die, just in case they don't think I'm dead if I don't pick up.

Anyway, the moral of this entry is that I think, sometimes, I am too obsessed with being on the computer, using the internet. Lately, I haven't been on Facebook, and you know what? I am feeling like I'm missing out on what people are up to, what videos they are talking about, if the latest Breaking Bad episode was mind-blowing or not (as it is every freaking Sunday. Do you really need to update your status as: OMG. BREAKING BAD. I can even update my status with that and earn a few likes, EVEN IF I DON'T WATCH IT.) Seriously, Facebook has become an addiction. The internet makes people a little crazy. Hiding behind their computer screens, typing away whatever they want. Sometimes people don't even say the things they do in real-life as they do on the internet. So it's nice to just, once in a while, shut that computer down, take a walk in the park, and you know, maybe forget about what your friends are up to. Hit up a friend and chat and play with them in person. Work out. It's nice to leave the computer - or the virtual world, and enjoy the real world.

The Real World

So uh... graduation is gonna be in 10 days! Am I ready for this? HELL YEAHHHHH!! I'm done with exams and studying and, and... actually, I'm gonna miss it. I'm gonna miss being a student, meeting new people, student activities, student discounts, going to events to get free food (jk), just the whole college life!!! :'(

Truth is, I'm not ready for the real world at all. I haven't really found a job yet. I've been searching, but no replies yet. I rather get a rejection than a we'll-leave-you-hanging-because-we've-seen-your-resume-but-you're-not-good-enough-so-we-won't-even-bother-to-contact-you... But I have a back-up plan.

What is that back-up plan, you say? I'm gonna leave the house one day and leave my family and friends a note: GOODBYE, GONE SOUL-SEARCHING. Be back for dinner.

Okay, not soul-searching. Maybe finding my passion (is that the same), and living the moments in NYC. Exploring as much as I can. With what money you say? Actually, with less money might even be a better thing. Except for the fact that I can't really try new food, but I've decided that I should limit my budget so I can live a broke life and actually try to enjoy it. Like, find all the free shit I can do here. So it's not really a goodbye. But my parents will definitely be unhappy if I'm not employed or not doing anything at home. It's scary, ya' know. Being unproductive. But I'm also gonna work out.

I guess my main goal after graduation is to get my shit together. The real world will only exist when I say I'm ready for it!

Successful baby tells me that I'VE GOT THIS!!

Sleepless Nights

My eyes are tired and I feel sleepy, yet my mind remains awake. Why?

It seems normal for me to sleep past 1AM, or even 2, but when I am tired at 12 and I get ready to sleep, I just toss and turn in my bed. I gaze at the darkness in the room, and at the little light peeking in from the window. I close my eyes again. I try to stop thinking... but who am I kidding? I don't think I can voluntarily stop thinking. Even thinking about not thinking is still thinking. Is it the noise from upstairs? Is something bothering me? Maybe if I listen to music... so I plug in my ipod and listen... it makes me want to sing along. So I did, in my head. This is no use. Maybe I am so used to sleeping at 2-3AM. My body isn't used to it. But my eyes... they want to rest. I can feel it becoming bloodshot/pink.

I am so tired of these sleepless nights. I just want to regulate my sleeping habit...

ON ANOTHER NOTE,

This is my first post of 2013!! As much as I want to blog about what happened during these past few months... I think the moment has passed :( But I can say what I miss! :)

Currently, I am missing Italy, which I have studied abroad in for the Winter session (the month of January). This travel experience actually made me love traveling. I don't travel often, and when I do, it's usually with my family, so I am obligated to go wherever they go. It's a different experience when you're traveling to learn... but best of all: explore the different culture(s). I think I will write about my adventures of my Winter session in the next few posts, because... I am feeling sleepy again. Hopefully this time, I will actually fall asleep. I am also in the process of making my video of my adventures in Italy/Paris... so STAY TUNED!!

Here is a picture I took from one of my favorite places in Italy: Piazza Michelangelo ♥

It was absolutely breath-taking.